Give me something covered in chocolate, I've had a shitty week.

Everything about the past week has been wrong, and lets just say it never happened. I've been so sick, and then having the worst migraines ever! Also, during the past week, I've gone insane. I want everything I can't have, I hate everything I do have, and I cry for absolutely no reason, and I feel like I could stab someone in the face. Perhaps, it's because it's that time of month. I also have a need for shopping, and eating everything. Mmmm. I feel completely disgusted with myself. I eat so bad, and never work out, ever! I am rotting inside! I have no energy, and I cant even go up the stairs without wanting to take a nap. I wake up every morning and I'm so tired of seeing the same face, makeup, hair, and clothes all the time. I need a change! My lack of creativity lately is so frustrating! So is my dad! Ahh, I'm so angry, I could, I could fall asleep. Make me a sandwich! I need out, the yelling, the screaming, the nagging. I feel dead inside, besides that little voice that keeps saying "HELP!" Anyways, I'm gonna do something productive now. I would play my drums, but this constant beating in my head doesn't want me to. I think it's asking for advil instead. Bye luvs! xoxo

I have returned...

Well well well, I'm back folks! I know it's been awhile (like you really care) but I'm not dead, I was just having a good time. I gotta drumset, it's my favourite. I got it for Christmas, my dreams come alive! It's red! Anyways, Christmas was super, besides the no snow, which decided to finally take a visit like two weeks ago, and then again the other day! I played with my dogs because they were snowy and cute. But then, it decided to rain and melt all the snow away until perhaps next January. I like winter, no one like winter anymore, it's all about summer. I'm going to Florida. In ummm, April. During spring break. Nuts eh. Sure is, aint it. Totally. So over the holidays I decided to not eat chicken, well organic once and awhile. Now I don't have to feel like a total hypocrit (if that's how you spell that word) So... I gotta admit, I like "the friend". I actually have for awhile, but I'm such a damn weakling, I need myself some balls. I applied for a job, I am so full of doubt, it's madness! I am not fit at all, bla! I eat, and eat, and eat... and then I sit, and walk a bit. My treadmill has turned into a laundry rack, and maybe if I had some damn money, I could buy a gym pass. Rarrrr! I'm supposed to be doing my homework but there's only so many french pronouns I can take! Geeez...! I've been sick lately, it sucks! I like exclamation marks, I like the way they look. They can express happiness, anger, sarcasm, and like whoa crazy!!! Just like that!!!! Wow!!!! Zam!!!! Anyways, getting back to the hell I call homework now. Bye luvs! xoxo

TSSSUUUNAMII.....II WIILLL GEETTT YOOOUUUUU!!!!! Good times with snl eh! Although I am crushed without you Jimmy, sniff.