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Madness! Madness I tell you!

Ok so my week has been pretty damn great right. I went shopping at the Guess Warehouse Sale at the PNE and it was MADNESS! I bought clothes... that seem expensive, but really their not, so it's fantastic! Where did I get this money considering I don't have a job... simple... it was my birthday. Another year older as of September 14th. Crazy eh? I'm 17, it doesn't seem like it though, I like to think I'm 5, it's too bad I'm not. I'd like to thank everyone who gave me a present, and to the ones that promised me one, and then forgot, thanks for making me realize how fantastic of a friend you really are. I'm not greedy, but hey, a promise is a promise and if it's not true, why say it right. Another fantastic thing is that I'm finally getting better at driving! It's true, I drove home from school today and actually made it home! So I'm a little pissed off today, I love my friends, but some of them, just plain piss me off. What's with all the drama in high school? Supposedly, my friend is spreading rumors about people, and I guess to make things more heated, supposedly I am too. Don't you love how people can completely twist your words around to something completely different, so they have an excuse to be mad at you. Then they are positive that you said it even though you know what you actually did say. Why do people feed off this madness even though they know it can cost them their friendship. Anyways, I should stop complaining. It doesn't worry me, I know what happens in my life, and I'm completely happy with the way things are going, I don't need people to bring me down for something I didn't even say or do. I'm also pretty open to the fact that maybe one time I did say something wrong, but who cares, I probably misunderstood and it's over with. Know what else pisses me off, people who bump me and don't say sorry, but I guess I don't know what might be going on their lives, someone could have died, or maybe they just ate some bad sushi. Anyways I'm going to go eat a veggie burger now so this is good bye. I might be back on in a bit to complain some more, I need somewhere to vent, it's building inside me. The End... or is it?

Tracie's advice for today: Don't eat cow's or wear their dead skin, it's cruel and just plain grose when you think about it.

at school...

So, I'm at school right now in french class and I'm really bored. My friend Mhark (not M-hark) says: I like bananas. So I thought I'd share that with you. Anyways, I hate this class, it's so easy since I was in French Immersion for like 4-5 years, so now I feel like I'm in Grade 5 again. Woopee! I'm hungry, it's almost lunch, so I'm excited hehe. .....hello to all the kids out there!!! (this is mhark) ......if you are reading!!! DO NOT! DO DRUGS! I agree, hehe. Well I have to go now because it's almost time to leave. The End.. Or is it?

Castle Fun Park

Well, here I go again, spilling out my life in this little journal thing, when I could be doing something productive. For example, I could go out, but who really wants to when they have a bad knee, and can't really walk anyway, plus it's raining. Anyways, I hobbled around the mall yesterday for hours, and was so upset that nothing fit me, and when it did, it was too expensive. But I bought two necklaces and a cinnamon bun, so that made it all worth while, until I spilled the cinnamon goop on my pants and had too walk... or limp around the mall like that. But last night was fun, it was my sister's 22nd b-day party and my mom made soooo much food, it was fantastic, then we went to Castle Fun Park, the funnest place ever! I felt like I was five! I played this frog racing game and could not be defeated, it was the highlight of my day. Oooh yeah, me and my quick reflexes... Anyways, it was fun and I got lots of candy after... and a grapefruit Sobe. The End.


P.S. Happy "late" Birthday Sarah, aka SarHa.

no more summer :(

I can't beleive that summer is almost over and I have to go back to school. It shouldn't be that bad this year though, my classes don't seem too hard, but I am going to miss sleeping in every morning. And I think it will be different this year. I've changed alot over the summer, I think I can finally be myself this year. Last year, I was so concerned with being "miss popular barbie" that I wasn't really thinking about who I was. I mean, it was fun for awhile, but I can't keep hiding myself in blond hair, pink, and pretending to like rap music haha. It's hard though, to be myself, when my mom wants me to be this "perfect pretty little blond angel", I guess it makes her feel better about herself. Like when I mentioned that I wanted to die my hair black, she almost died, I mean, you should have seen the look on her face. And then "the look" was followed by "I don't want you ruining yourself like that". It will happen sooner or later, trust me, when I graduate, I can do whatever I want. I also want to feel like a princess at grad, that's one thing holding me back as well. And I know if I did it now, my friends would laugh at me, because as we all know, friends in high school don't care about how you really feel, they're just friends with you because you're there, and they want you to be like everyone else right, except the ones who don't judge you. Plus I've been hiding behind this image too long now to do anything about it, but as I slowly change, maybe people will realize who I really am. It wouldn't hurt me if they laugh, because I know that they are just jealous, because I will still look good, even if I have black hair. I know this because, yes, me being "wig obsessive", I've tried on a black wig, and never looked better, haha. I'm not bragging, I'm just being truthful, even though, sometimes I feel ugly as hell, I still consider myself extremely pretty, and I hear it from others as well, but if "I" say I am, I guess that makes me a bitch. Even if I'm not pretty, who cares, maybe I'll be happier.