Good times...

Wow... I had like the best night ever just awhile ago. So I went to The Killers concert last week and it was amazing! I had floor tickets and I was super close to the stage. People weren't too pushy and I tried to avoid them so I had a perfect view. The performance was awesome too. But that's not even the half of it! After, we saw the tour buses in the back so we figured we'd hang out there and wait for the band. So after like an hour, they finally came out and were signing autographs. I got their autographs which was awesome, but even better, the lead singer gave me a hug. How cool is that eh. He smelled really good too, which was surprising considering they must sweat like madness on stage. Another bandmember (the one with big hair) was super smashed and he kinda fell on me and his hair went in my mouth, so that was interesting. Well that was my super awesome night at The Killers concert. Now if only I could meet Green Day, my life would be complete. The End... off to watch Family Guy reruns. Nite!

wow...whatta nerd

Hmm.. I just wrote this all and then it got deleted so here I am doing it again. So here is how it kinda went... Wow, I looked back at my blog and realized how much I fucken complain and how retarded I was. I don't need a boyfriend and I am perfectly happy being independant. In fact, I tried out the whole boyfriend thing but I felt so "trapped." Man, I was desperate eh? Geez. Anyways, all is good. All is well. I am completely happy with everything and it's a great feeling. I realized that it's ok to be different, it's ok to not like what "everyone else" likes, and it's kick ass that my favourite colour is actually green. I can drive now and I have a job at Rogers where I get free movies and sent home for looking "lazy" but it's super fun. Man, this is retarded writing this again, I can't even remember what I said. It was something like... Value Village, colourful hairclips, cats, cinnabuns, sushi, my sister, sleep, drums, green day, and super, fun, fantastic friends make everything worth while and make this shit hole world a better place. Anyways, I'm super sleepy and it's near that time again. Yes... sleep time. The best time.

*Remember... be individual, be free, and don't get sucked into anything you don't agree with. You are awesome the way you are and no one can change that.


"You will never be happy if you continue to search for what happiness consists of. You will never live if you are looking for the meaning of life." — Albert Camus

The BIG question....

Will I, Tracie (keeping last name confidental) ever get a boyfriend? This is a mystery, yes. I think I'm attractive, and I don't smell, and I have a cute personality so... I guess I'm asking... What the hell is wrong with me? Is it me? Or is it every guy I've ever been on a date with, not that I've been on many. One time I'd like not to say "well.. the movie was good" or "the beach was nice." I think this disease runs in my blood. I don't mean love and I sure as hell don't mean "booty calls." Just, a boyfriend. It's not me, it's just... guys don't have the fucken balls to do shit around a girl. Not all, but many. I rest my case, it's them, not me.

Welcome "Sping"

So here I am again, i haven't been on here in awhile being super busy and all with my massive pounds of homework. But, it's finally Spring Break! A time to relax and forget about everything! I am soooo excited, Florida im ONE month (actually a month and three days, according to my dad). Who cares!! It's like saying "about 100" and someone goes "actually it's 103." No shit! Geeez! But I mean really, this is a guy who can analyze a fricken Tim Hortons commercial for 20 minutes. Anyways, back to the happy, fun talk! I went shopping the other day and bought the funnest stuff, including non refundable shoes that I kind of regret. Oh well, they're cute. I bought tanning minutes finally too! Just so I'm not pasty when I go, plus I don't wanna come home like a lobster. Ouch! I also bought 2 excellent cd's and the best of Jimmy Fallon (aka future "and alot older than me" husband) He's hilarious, makes me smile! It's so sad he quit SNL :( My hair is dark now, i forgot too mention that. It's almost black, I love it! Soon, I'm gonna get some crazy streaks too. Oh man, today is such a boring, pointless day. I saw the Ring 2 on Saturday and it's not bad. Not as good as the first one though. Still, it's jumpy. Anyways, I'm off! Gonna go eat and then call my old boss. I need a referance letter cause I'm trying to get into a cosmetology school next year, even though in a way I don't wanna go cause I really wanna finish high school. All the girls are drunken, party girl drop outs who have nothing better to do, but I'm actually really serious about it. It's stupid how that works. Tata!

I feel like a bowl of sunshine...

Here are some reasons why I hate January and February:

1. I had a shitty New Year's Eve.

2. I can't find a job.

3. I had a sinus infection, twice!

4. I had the flu for 2 weeks.

5. I got kicked in the face by a soccer ball.

6. It's only the beginning of the semester and I don't think my teachers like me.

7. I pinched a nerve in my back and I can barely walk! How this happened, I have no clue.

8. I reaaally need a job.

9. My legs are getting fatter by the minute, and I can't work out because I can't even WALK!

10. I want to go shopping like mad, but I have no money!

I guess I should look on the bright side, it could be so much worse. I know I should be thankful for what I have and that I'm not starving in some 3rd world country but still, it does suck! I'm sorry for being such a drama queen, but venting is an awesome way to feel better!

I'm glad I'm not retarded.

I am so sick of fighting with my parents about George Bush! He is an aweful man! He's adorable like a puppy, but puppies make more sense to me. Sure he "works hard and does some things" but he is a puppet! He's got my parents so wrapped up in all his shit, even after seeing Farenheit 911. Ok, so they say that he seems stupid because the media makes him out to be, but when u think about it, the media made a hype about Bill Clinton being a cheater, because HE WAS!!!! It's the same with Bush! The world is in the shits because of him! Grrrr! I just wish they saw my point about it, and about many other things. For example "abortions". It makes me sick to even think about it, and here my sister and I are arguing with my mom about abortion. My mom's pro choice and it makes me sad. If you think you're old enough to go out and have sex, your damn well old enough to raise a child. It's the most selfish thing, and it makes me sick how people see it as a form of birth control. How can people live with that guilt? I think that babies are put inside us for a reason, and I can't see how people could throw such an amazing gift away. Know what got us in to this conversation to begin with, which is the really disturbing part. My mom said that if me or my sister were handicap, she'd give us away. I'm in shock! She said retarded people make her sick and she couldn't live with us! Why not just put us in a bag and drown us! How disturbingly selfish is that. Ahh, I don't understand people! I really don't! I'm sick and it's aweful. I think I have the flu. Bla! I want to get hit by a bus and get it over with! The bonus is non-stop catering and unlimited sobe. Man, I hate people that steriotype Canadians. I saw two shows today where Canadians have ugly accents and looked like woods people. And ofcourse being in Canada, it was freezing "eh". Its colder in New York and many other states than where I live. We don't have accents! Jim Carrey, Mike Myers, Shania Twain, Avril Lavigne all talk the way Americans do! Isn't that saying something! I once talked to a chick from the states, and she's like "woh, you have tv's in Canada!" I'm like, give me a break! Anyways, I haven't bitched in awhile so I'm sorry! Complaining keeps me sain! We all need drama! Except at school, with guys and yatta yatta. I could name like 20 people at my school who cry about 5 times a week and everyone gets so involved! I haven't cried at school since I was like, hello, 8 years old maybe! Im dying my hair next week! I was going to this week, but I've been way to sick. Dark brown! It's gonna be fantastic! I think I'm finally getting better, yippee. What a shitty week off. It's my week off! And I've been in bed, sick! I gotta drink more sobe and watch tv. Bye all who stick by my with my yapping and complaining. Capital high five to you folks. Fine I'm leaving, peace out!

Give me something covered in chocolate, I've had a shitty week.

Everything about the past week has been wrong, and lets just say it never happened. I've been so sick, and then having the worst migraines ever! Also, during the past week, I've gone insane. I want everything I can't have, I hate everything I do have, and I cry for absolutely no reason, and I feel like I could stab someone in the face. Perhaps, it's because it's that time of month. I also have a need for shopping, and eating everything. Mmmm. I feel completely disgusted with myself. I eat so bad, and never work out, ever! I am rotting inside! I have no energy, and I cant even go up the stairs without wanting to take a nap. I wake up every morning and I'm so tired of seeing the same face, makeup, hair, and clothes all the time. I need a change! My lack of creativity lately is so frustrating! So is my dad! Ahh, I'm so angry, I could, I could fall asleep. Make me a sandwich! I need out, the yelling, the screaming, the nagging. I feel dead inside, besides that little voice that keeps saying "HELP!" Anyways, I'm gonna do something productive now. I would play my drums, but this constant beating in my head doesn't want me to. I think it's asking for advil instead. Bye luvs! xoxo

I have returned...

Well well well, I'm back folks! I know it's been awhile (like you really care) but I'm not dead, I was just having a good time. I gotta drumset, it's my favourite. I got it for Christmas, my dreams come alive! It's red! Anyways, Christmas was super, besides the no snow, which decided to finally take a visit like two weeks ago, and then again the other day! I played with my dogs because they were snowy and cute. But then, it decided to rain and melt all the snow away until perhaps next January. I like winter, no one like winter anymore, it's all about summer. I'm going to Florida. In ummm, April. During spring break. Nuts eh. Sure is, aint it. Totally. So over the holidays I decided to not eat chicken, well organic once and awhile. Now I don't have to feel like a total hypocrit (if that's how you spell that word) So... I gotta admit, I like "the friend". I actually have for awhile, but I'm such a damn weakling, I need myself some balls. I applied for a job, I am so full of doubt, it's madness! I am not fit at all, bla! I eat, and eat, and eat... and then I sit, and walk a bit. My treadmill has turned into a laundry rack, and maybe if I had some damn money, I could buy a gym pass. Rarrrr! I'm supposed to be doing my homework but there's only so many french pronouns I can take! Geeez...! I've been sick lately, it sucks! I like exclamation marks, I like the way they look. They can express happiness, anger, sarcasm, and like whoa crazy!!! Just like that!!!! Wow!!!! Zam!!!! Anyways, getting back to the hell I call homework now. Bye luvs! xoxo

TSSSUUUNAMII.....II WIILLL GEETTT YOOOUUUUU!!!!! Good times with snl eh! Although I am crushed without you Jimmy, sniff.