Another pic of me with red hair, be honest! 

me as a red head, you like? 

Purple Lunchbox

So here I am again, spilling out my life for those of you who actually care. My parents alwasy seem to manage to ruin a perfectly good day with just a few words. I can't wait till I move out... freedom! That is all I want. The fact that I'm going to have to make my own food, and clean, now that's a different story. Well, school's going awesome, I'm getting straight A's which is fantastic. Even though people have a low self esteem and have to say "Well, your classes are easy." Isn't that what "friends" are for? To make you feel like shit. Well, that's not the case with all of my friends, but mainly one. That's not the first time, lets say "Bob" has done that to me. This particular person likes to make me feel like shit on a daily basis, yet constantly brag about themselves as if they were God. It bothers me sometimes, when I don't feel accepted, but it shouldn't because obviously "Bob" has some major personal issues. How low can you get when you have to make your "good friend" feel so bad about themselves, just to make yourself feel better. Yup, that's reaaaal cool... sarcasm. Anyways, I saw The Forgotten yesterday and it was great, not what I expected at the end, but an overall good movie. I really want to see I Heart Huckabees, it looks awesome. I love movies that are random, and strange, that's what makes them great! I'm going trick or treating this Halloween, I'm really not to old, I'm gonna do it till I have children no doubt, and then, I'll go with them, it's simple! I mean, free candy, and you get to dress up! I'm going as a gentleman, in a tux and top hat, I'm being my friends date, it'll be wicked retahded, like the Boston Red Sox. They're awesome this year, blows me away! So I figured it out, I'm dying my hair red, yup I'm gonna be a red head, fun eh! I like it because it's different, and it really suits me at the same time. Anyways kids, that's enough from me! Tata!

In love once again...

Wow! Did anyone see "The Best of Jimmy Fallon" on SNL last night? I am in love with him, he makes me smile. The End.

Someone should invent action figures that are lanky and have no superpowers. Then the youth of today might respect people like me. -Jimmy Fallon

venting time...

AHHHHHH I HATE MY MOM, I WANT TO SHOOT HER IN THE FACE! Not literally but ALMOST! So, I'm doing my homework, which I'm really stressed out about, cause it's retarded and I just want to finish, and she keeps coming in and bugging me about not emptying the dishwasher, and then cute dogs or some shit, and I mean I didn't say anything wrong, I just said "Oh", what the fuck am I supposed to say? "Oh REALLY!!! WOW HOW EXCITING!!" Then she's all like, huh, you make me feel bad, I can never talk to you, why do you do this to me, you've ruined my day, bla bla bla, nag nag nag. I mean, does she like making people feel aweful? Honestly I think she does. Two words... GUILT TRIPPER! Somebody just take me away from here!

so alone...

The thing I love about this blogger thing is that when no one wants to talk to you, you can just type and vent about all the shit that's bothering you. For example right now. I am so fucking pissed off and my anger is just building up inside of me, but I have no one. If I talk to my mom (the reason I am angry) she just says "No, I'm busy" or "Not right now" or " I don't want to hear about it". Then I go to my sister, who says "I'm there for you if you have a problem" and she says "I don't want to hear it". I like talking to my Dad, but it's a little hard when he's always out of town. So then, I call up a phone line where I can just vent about whatever is bothering me and guess what, they put me on hold for 5 minutes. I gave up, hence the reason I am writing this. If you're wondering why I am so mad, my mom, as usual. She just loves to make me feel sooo bad about myself in every possible way she can, or at least that's how it seems. She's too stubborn to admit it though, so then if I talk to her about it, she'll go on this big guilt trip, turn it around, and make me the bad guy! I love the support I get! Well it's almost 12:00 and I have to go to school tomorrow so I guess I should go to bed, now that I am liberated. Goodnight!

no one can make you feel inferior without your consent. --eleanor roosevelt
nothing can bring you peace but yourself --ralph waldo emerson

Update!

Lately I've been feeling pretty fantastic, like the feeling you get when you have two knives "Two knives, wow this is pretty great!" Come on, you know, The Simpsons. That has got to be the funniest show on television, I mean, you gotta admit. Anyways, right now, everything just feels right, you know. Besides the fact I'm in desperate need of a job, I mean "getting close to applying at McD's desperate." I think I have a pretty good chance of getting a job at Rogers Video, I've been hoping and praying about it. Wish me luck! My knee is killing me, I mean my whole leg looks slightly deformed now. Oh, in case you didn't know I dislocated it a year ago and tore some legaments. I'm going to the specialist on Wednesday, and I reaaaaaally hope he can do something about it. But I figure everything is going to be ok. Oh Oh, know what I want for Christmas, you know those CSI kits at Toys R' Us! That! I want that! It's not going to be a big "present" kind of Christmas, but that's not a bad thing because I'm going to Florida, the Bahamas and Peurto Vallarta instead. I know! Crazy eh! I'm so excited! Omg, my mom bought " Fruit Loops" but they're the "no sugar, no artificial flavour" type. I mean, that is just not right! I'm finished reading "the best book ever!" It's called Junk, it's such an amazing read! Happy Thanksgiving!

Tracie's advice: stuff yourself this weekend, don't worry about carbs and fat, you only live once, enjoy it!

HELP!

For the past little while I've been trying to be optimistic about everything, but it just seems that the more I try to be optimistic, the more I hate everyone. I bet my Dad is the reason for that, he is the most negative person I know. How could someone hate life so much? I mean life can treat me real well no doubt, but lately I've been so pissed off at everything and everyone! It's giving me headaches... literally, I had to go to the doctor's. Why could someone at the age of 17 be so stressed out? I have two words for you...MY MOTHER! I mean I love her, but she drives me mad! She gets mad over everything I do, she's soooooo materialistic and the most shallow person EVER! I bet if I was ugly, she'd drown me and say it was my Dad's fault. And she always complains about everything, and how bad life is all the time, and takes it out on me! I can't live with that, I need out! And I think most of my friends hate me for some unknown reason, which makes everything perfect. A few things are going pretty well though, I have a new fish because my other one died, which no lie, I cried for about an hour. His name is Pillow. My mom hates the name though. But that's her problem, I mean it's not like her name's anything special. Or mine, as a matter of fact. When I have kids, their going to have totally original names. I want my promised Birthday presents from A MONTH AGO! But I'm scared to tell my friend to buy me one, even though I spent 30 BIG FAT DOLLARS on her's. It's not the actual present issue, but what's really getting to me is that people can't keep their mouth's shut when they don't mean what they say. I'm hungry but I dont know what to eat, I want Old Spaghetti Factory for dinner. So, my Dad offer's to buy me dinner and then everything I say he say's no, so now he's not getting me anything, I mean HELLO, don't offer at all then! My dog's are fantastic! If anyone actually EVER goes on here, what colour should I dye my hair, red or brown? Oh yeah, and if you leave a comment on my page, don't be a bastard like "cows are already dead" guy, cause I will hunt you down. When I'm older, I want lots of fish. The End... or is it?

Tracie's advice for today: Be strong little marshmallow